Surviving Anxiety

Dear one, we feel your pain for society can be scary, as we do not always trust others’ actions.  So many shootings, so many fingers pointed, so many innocent people who suffer.  And how do we handle these fears?  We choose to internalize them, which surfaces as anxiety.  But most do not know that anxiety is a protective way to not deal with the real fear… the unknown. 

You see, we learned a long time ago that we are victims to the actions of others.  As children, we do not have the ability to compete with the power of big people.  Since the big people were usually the ones who cared for us, we had to learn survival.

But what really is survival?  Survival is doing anything in the moment to get past the fear.  The moment, dear one is the key here, for you do not need to ‘survive’ when things were going well, just when the explosion begins.  As a result, what is learned is at any time without notice, we can be knocked into a situation that we fear we may not be able to overcome.  And this dear one, is where the anxiety breeds… Did we do wrong?  Did we upset them? Will they threaten us?  Will they act on those threats?  Will we be humiliated?  Will we beaten?  Will we suffer?  And at times, Will we die?

Anxiety is the unknown answers to these fears.  But what is known, is how it feels when the explosion begins.  For even when we were young, we could feel the onset of the explosion, we could feel the change in their mood and actions, we could feel what we knew was about to happen.  And our anxiety is our protection, for it is our preparation to step into the survival mode.    

Knowing this dear one, having to survive is fearful.  Though it is the fear which directs you, and not the actual actions to come.  Anxiety is there to protect you, but your belief in protection has now taken over, and this dear one does not serve you. 

For you are strong, you are wise, and you are capable of stepping outside your comforts zone to show yourself that all is well.  This may have to be done in small steps, baby steps even, but once you do, little by little, you will see that you can see the light, and be the person you came here to be.  Know that we created these titles for they were useful, but once they become controlling of our joy, it becomes a clear sign they are no longer needed.

Thank the anxiety, for it was a great protector.  But let it go now, for you are your own protector of your life, and you choose to live life to the degree of happiness.  Scary situations will arise again, but you have options, you can stand strong for one minute, two minutes and more.  For facing your fear, if even for a few minutes, takes its power away, and frees you to choose to be happier, live lighter, and feel your own freedom once again.

~ RoseAngel